Become friends with people who aren’t your age. Hang out with people whose first language isn’t the same as yours. Get to know someone who doesn’t come from your social class. This is how you see the world. This is how you grow.
You will call me sweetheart
and I will still stumble over
I will want to know how many breaths you take after waking up
before you consider yourself alive
I will shiver when you touch me
do not be offended;
you are the warmest person I know.
That was the thing. You never got used to it, the idea of someone being gone. Just when you think it’s reconciled, accepted - someone points it out to you, and it just hits you all over again, that shocking.
I want to make your coffee in the morning
Even though we’re both late sleepers.
And to watch your sleepy eyes open
After a restful night
And your arms tighten around me.
I ask how you like your coffee
Only once though, because I’ll remember
I’ll remember every detail about you.
I want to drive you to work
With your hand on my knee
Because you know it drives me crazy
But your goodbye kiss keeps me sane
And later I’ll surprise you with a homemade lunch
Because you think I eat out too much
But we both know that wasn’t the case the other day.
I want to pick you up after work
I’ll let you drive because I know you crave
The power of the acceleration
And I’ll lay my head on your shoulder
As you tell me about your day
And what those people I don’t know
Said that was funny, that pissed you off, or that had no affect whatsoever.
I’ll just sit there watching your lips move craving them on mine.
And when the night comes,
And were both too tired to talk anymore
You’ll pull me into your arms
And hold me
My security blanket
In exchange for the coffee, lunch, and power.
And we’ll fall asleep
Into our gentle dreams.
Tomorrow, I won’t have to ask about coffee.
I might be too young to settle down and marry, but I’m definitely too old to be playing anymore games. I’m too old to just be talking to someone, too old to not know what’s really going on, and too old to be entertaining somebody with no intention of making it work. At this age, I’m only interested in consistency, stability, respect and loyalty. And I want to hear someone tell me that they love me and know they Goddamn mean it.